-Romans 5:6 NIV
Over 4 years ago, I was sitting in the living room of my first apartment with 3 women from my church. I was studying the bible for about a month, and the topic of sin came up. I was asked if I knew what sin was, and I simply answered the question with a yes, followed by a “but, I haven’t sinned.” To support my response, I introduced into the conversation a woman that I had known. I compared our lives, and managed to squeeze in a bunch of critical remarks about this woman.
By the time I had finished what I was saying, the women had loved me back into a healthier conversation. They introduced to me what the Bible says about sin, and who sins. I was shocked. All of my life I thought that I was a “good” person. I hadn’t stolen anything since I was a kid, I hadn’t told any huge lies. By the end of the week, I had grown afraid of God. He went from non-existent, in my own mind, to existent, but scary. What was I to do with such an unhealthy fear of God?
When I shared this months later with my mentor, she encouraged me with scripture and further encouraged me to pray about it. It was not until 6 months after confessing what I had been feeling to my mentor that I began to pray about it. I kneel before God, close to my bed, and I cried. I did not stop praying until everything was out before Him. I confessed to Him all of my sins, and begged for His foreverness. I even began reading His word on my own. There were times when I would be working, and random people would bring me scriptures and lessons that they had heard some place. They would even pray with me. Thinking back on it, it was as if God was sending me kisses as I sought after Him.
When Jesus was handed over to the Roman Governor, Pilate, the opportunity presented itself for Jesus to not go to the cross. Instead Jesus endured the cross for us anyway — accomplishing His Father’s will. Jesus Christ had to die baring our sins to resurrect, and once resurrected He had to ascend into heaven that the Holy Spirit may live amongst us, and in us until that Great day of His return. What king serves? What king protects? What king cares for all men, women and children? What king dies for his friends? What king defend his friends?
“Since we have now been justified by his blood, how much more shall we be saved from God’s wrath through him!For if, while we were God’s enemies, we were reconciled to him through the death of his Son, how much more, having been reconciled, shall we be saved through his life!Not only is this so, but we also boast in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have now received reconciliation.”
Christ’s death brought forth reconciliation between mankind and The Father. Psalm 8:4 says, “what is mankind that you are mindful of them, human beings that you care for them?” God is justice, but He is also merciful. God is love, but He is also jealous for you.
23 When they hurled their insults at him, he did not retaliate; when he suffered, he made no threats. Instead, he entrusted himself to him who judges justly.24 “He himself bore our sins”in his body on the cross, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; “by his wounds you have been healed.”25 For “you were like sheep going astray,” but now you have returned to the Shepherd and Overseer of your souls.”
Grace is freely given favor. It has been freely given to you. You did nothing to earn it. Yes, you are unworthy to receive it because of your sin. I am unworthy to receive it because of my sin. BUT, “to each one of us grace has been given as Christ apportioned it.” (Ephesians 4:7 NIV) There is grace through the CROSS.